gloomy part of me


Assalamualaikum.
its 31/1 in 2017, nearly my birthday and officially 18

and still im didnt manage to forget the pain of the past.
entahlah walaupun macam mana kau explode all the positive vibes,
still benda ni menyakitkan. i remember every single things.
its like bila tengah duduk sorang sorang or even kt shower  or dalam kereta pastu dengar pula lagu sedih pergh padu beb all the memories flip back to my mind,
macam slide show depan mata, my heart ache so much.

bukan tak cuba lupakan, cuba tapi entah.
i hope soon ill able to forget those shitty things
bcs im felt sorry for my mind yet my cutie heart HAHA
sigh how teriffic my life was back then.

im agreed with this tweet by peebo;

"Now I understand that it's different. Moving on is one thing. Forgetting is one thing. Forgetting takes a lot of time same goes to healing."


im not being hypocrite or other such things, when im being nice, yes im nice.
but still theres the part of me that ache for the past.
dont worry ada benda yang kita perlu pendam je, lets the nature do the works!

yeah at the end of the day you and me still need to be happy, SO,

lets spread the postive vibes!

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