The Other Side

its sad how ppl easily come and go. im super sad. orang yang paling banyak luangkan masa dengan kau, orang yang paling banyak kongsi cerita, orang yang paling banyak gelak tawa, orang yang paling setia teman kau, puff sekalip mata, jadi orang yang kau pernah kenal. sadis bukan? thats the rule of life. ppl come & go. sedih tapi itu hakikatnya. im not gonna write so much, sebab sakit sangat. patheticnya aku ni.

"Ive turned people into homes, and i ended up homeless." Over the years, yes people changed. tak kisah pun sebab semua manusia berubah, but the flashbacks that follows tu. sebab kita selalu teringat how somebody tu used to be dulu. but then turn out to be something that we really afraid of. kita bukan sesiapa pun nak tentukan hidup orang lain, tapi tu la kita manusia, ada jatuh bangun. kadang diri ni separuh sedar sebab emosi. tu la aku, selalu emosi menang je. bukan tak cuba kawal tapi waallahi, ni ujian aku. setiap minggu mesti akan nangis punya. bapak fragile siot haha. cuma aku mengharap, one day aku akan datang. one day that everything gonna be alright. cepatlah datang-- dan aku harap, one day aku, akan pandang masa lalu dan berterima kasih. ye, satu hari nanti--

Assalamualaikum. its 31/1 in 2017, nearly my birthday and officially 18 and still im didnt manage to forget the pain of the past. entahlah walaupun macam mana kau explode all the positive vibes, still benda ni menyakitkan. i remember every single things. its like bila tengah duduk sorang sorang or even kt shower  or dalam kereta pastu dengar pula lagu sedih pergh padu beb all the memories flip back to my mind, macam slide show depan mata, my heart ache so much. bukan tak cuba lupakan, cuba tapi entah. i hope soon ill able to forget those shitty things bcs im felt sorry for my mind yet my cutie heart HAHA sigh how teriffic my life was back then. im agreed with this tweet by peebo; "Now I understand that it's different. Moving on is one thing. Forgetting is one thing. Forgetting takes a lot of time same goes to healing." im not being hypocrite or other such things, when im being nice, yes im nice. but still theres the part of me that ache for the past. ...